I Run

I went on a run yesterday all by myself. ⁣⁣⁣

I had so many thoughts, and while I know my words aren’t enough, I feel the need to speak. ⁣⁣
“Search me, God, and know my heart;⁣⁣
Test me and my anxious thoughts ⁣⁣
See if there is any offensive way in me,⁣⁣
And lead me in the way everlasting”⁣⁣
Psalm 139:23-24⁣⁣⁣
I spend time in the streets of our neighborhood at least once, if not more times, per day. Since I was a teenager, walking outside has always provided a solace for me. Walking gives me peace, especially after a stressful day at school, at work, or at home with my little people. I can’t wait to get outside to move my body and clear my mind. I listen to music. I pray. I smile. I wave. I take my babies with me and they wave and smile. ⁣⁣⁣
And while I always carry a form of protection due to some experiences I’ve had, 99% of the time I walk without fear. If for some reason something really bad DID happen to me, at least someone would do something about it. ⁣⁣⁣
That’s what I thought about on my run today. I can go for a run without fear of being harmed solely because of my skin color AND justice would be sought if I was. ⁣⁣⁣
It’s hit me hard that while I can have these assurances, so many of my brothers and sisters can not and have not. So many do not have the comfort of getting outside, going for a walk, or just being a person in this world without their life, or the life of a loved one, being in danger. ⁣⁣⁣
Ahmaud should be alive today. His mom shouldn’t be alone this Mother’s Day. What happened to Ahmaud, and many other people of color, is evil. ⁣⁣The fact that something (the bare minimum) is just now happening is wrong. ⁣
If you feel the same, and are (like me) unsure what you can do next, I would love for you to join me in praying Psalm 139:23-24 and following some amazing folks moving forward for justice. You’ll find their posts and handles in my stories.

I don’t have the right words. Or the right next steps. I know these friends do. ⁣So I’m going to keep praying. And keep listening. And keep moving. #irunwithmaud ❤️